Halloween is Dead

Technically it is November 1st, but that is just because it is 12:30 and Halloween just ended.
Did it ever begin?
Growing up every year Halloween kicked ass. I remember the great snow storm of 91' when there was a crazy blizzard that came through this city, and I still went out to fill my bags with candy.
I remember being Power Rangers, Scream, G.I Joe, and a ton of other things over the years. With age I obviously grew out of being able to trick or treat which is a bummer. The sad thing is, it seems like the Holiday has really died.
I was driving home around 6:30 tonight, and I remember seeing about 3 groups of kids out running door to door. I thought to myself "Well, that is a good sign.. it's early and they are already kicking ass" thinking that was just the beginning.
After a bit of screwing around the house, getting stuff done, it was time to go back out. I knew I had to drive slower and be extra careful because kids are not always the brightest and could bolt out in the road at any second.
At least, I remember when I went out there was so many people on the sidewalks sometimes the street was the best route.
Instead, I spent most of my time driving slow because I was trying to find out where all the kids were! zip, nadda, none. I didn't see a single kid in the 5 miles I drove! What is wrong with that?! Why am I so disgruntled that there isn't kids out running around raising hell on a sugar overload? I should be happy that it isn't happening and I don't have to worry about my car getting scratched or egged.
Where has the tradition gone!
I remember easily running 5 miles while trick or treating growing up. The theory that kids just aren't being born in this area is completley out the window and useless. So, what exactly is it that causes this? Are kids not allowed out past 5 p.m on a Friday night? I mean yeah, candy is bad for you.. but not so bad that you can't go out once a year and eat way too much of it. Where has this holiday gone!?

It seems like every year my mom buys less and less candy, and has more and more left over. It just doesn't seem right how all of this candy can exist to be given away for FREE and nobody wants it! Why?! Why!? Halloween is DEAD. Which it shouldn't be!

Someday, when (if) I become a parent I am going to make my kids love Halloween more than their birthday and Christmas... Simply because they will be the only kids who will be out on the streets going door to door past their curfew! I don't care if the people are sleeping, we are still ringing every damn doorbell on the block. I mean, that is if people even hand out candy by then. It seems pointless to buy any if nobody will come get it in the first place.

As I get older, I start to realize why the older people always tell you their old "war" stories of walking both ways up hill 5 miles in the snow to get to school with no shoes. It is because as you get older things change so much from when you were a kid that you almost feel like you had it bad! Maybe kids don't walk the sidewalks because their parents drive them door to door? I don't know! Maybe they are afraid some creeper is going to jump out of the bush and get them. Wasn't that suppossed to be expected on Halloween? Scary people jumping out at you.. That is when you kick their ass with your awesome powers you obtain when you put on the masks.

All I am saying is that if Halloween is dying, at least let it go out in style and not fade away. I would much rather have the government prohibit it because there are too many riots, and crazy stuff happening than to see it just go out of style.

Maybe, that is just me, but maybe I am right? I sure as hell hope not.

I am going to be God

So... I am pretty sure if this blog ends up getting read someday, and somebody see's this somebody will be offended. Why? because people take religion way too far. Why? well, I have no idea. To be entirely honest I am not the most religious person simply because I feel like everyone has a different view on what is right and that in reality we are all aiming in the same direction.
With Halloween a few days away everyone keeps asking me "what are you going to be?" I respond with "what am I in 5th grade?" since I am soooo mature. Then I got thinking about it and I kind of sort of made up a joke.

With all this trying to figure out what I want to go to school for I got thinking, what kind of a degree do I need to become god? haha.
Somebody had asked me what I was going to college for the other day and without thinking I said "everything". They had a puzzled look on their face and immediately after that, still not thinking, I responded again with "I am going to college to be God"... "I am going to take every class ever and know everything, so then I can be God." LOL, anyone offended yet? If not, I am glad you aren't pissed.

Then after that I got thinking about it, the perfect costume for Halloween! I am going to be God. Walah! funny, interesting, and cheap! Why cheap? Well what does God wear? Can you prove it? Who says he doesn't wear what I wear everyday? Well, since you can't prove me wrong then why can't I wear what I wear and be God? ZING.

So, if you see me stumbling about on Halloween (actually I won't be stumbling at all due to this thing called being sober on a holiday) and I am not all slutted out like every girl out there, or dressed up all cool, well it is because I am just a little more ahead of the curve.

Happy Halloween. ZING!

What to be when I grow up?

So today was interesting... Not only have I slowly been losing intrest in school.. I have been getting some major confusion on why I should go to school, as in what for. I had a little push from a teacher who I think made school the most fun for me. Next to my english teacher, it would be my graphic design teacher. He basically told me do what your into. You can't get to your senior year and change majors. Obviously.
However this is my delima...
I want a business degree because I like business and I get it. Plus, the jobs out there for those degrees are great. However, I just never see myself working for somebody all my life, and that is where I start questioning if I really want that degree. However, the things I learn are beneficial to that ideal goal.

Then I got thinking, what do I wish I could do. That is where it gets rough. I love doing artistic things like graphic design, video editing, photography and editing. Then I love to write. I may not be amazing at it, and I have two different sides to things. On this side nobody really reads this, and it is pretty much an available to the public private journal. Then on the other side my other site is hitting about 25,000 page views a month. So obviously people are reading my stuff.

Okay, so this means I want a degree in Business Administration, Graphic Design, and Writing. Shit. Haha, I mean obviously once I have my generals out of the way it would be so easy to get associates degrees in all of those. It is just associates degrees really don't do much these days. So, now I am just sitting here wondering what it will take for me to really figure out how I want to go about college.

Where will I go in life, what will I do. I don't know. Everyday something new happens and every decision I make leads me in a new direction. So, what happens next.

This is just the thoughts going through my head right now and it is so rediculous. That would be that.

A Sober Man's Thoughts are a Drunk Man's Words

Have you ever heard that before? A drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts? I remember when I first heard that saying. It was from somebody pretty close to me. When I heard it I was young, and sober. I didn't believe it. I just believed "Oh, they are just drunk and angry" and never realized what exactly it means.
Obviously, I drink. It is a very rare ocassion though. So, if you get the chance take advantage of it. It litterally is about twice a year. Well... maybe 2 or 3 more occasions than that even. But that is it really, I rarely ever drink.

However, I was thinking about it and realized how tempting it is to text and call people when you drink. You just want to express how you feel about somebody and before you know it you are getting a soboer response where you just know that they know you are drunk. It sucks because it is always that "okay" or something that you don't want to hear. I realize then why I never drink.

It is because when I drink I make a complete idiot out of myself and then I end up getting into stuff I really shouldn't be digging into. It has happened to all of us, well... At least all of us guys who drink. We always want to be right and win so we aim for our ex's.

I need to delete those numbers for sure because it ends up getting me in trouble everytime. I always find a way to get them involved in my night and why it ended as badly as it did.

Don't get me wrong though, if I am at a party or something, nobody can tell I am making this idiot of myself. I tend to do it on a silent un-noticed level that just semes to always tempt and remind me of my past. I hate it. I wish it was something I couldn't remember even if I tried. It is just hard when you aren't this amazingly good looking guy who works all the time and cares way too much about school. You tend to lose track of time and before you know it, it has been 2 months and you haven't even had an oppertunity to go on a date.

I won't lie, I am sure it is obvious of my state that I am writing in right now. It just sucks becuasue we are trying to revamp this website. It just isn't as smooh as I like.

That is all. I doubt this will make sense in the morning.. but whatever.

Too Awesome

I hate how I have some awesome ideas of things to write about. I hate it because these awesome ideas come when I can't write them down. Eventually the ideas fade, and then I am sitting here just staring at the screen with the cursor blinking, just waiting for it to spill out of me. These awesome things don't come back, and I don't know why. My mind works so weird, it multi-tasks at a high level, and some how manages to start thinking about things I don't want to think about. So ideas come in, they stick, and then slowly fade under all these other thoughts.

I need one of those old school voice recorder things, so whenever I have a good idea I can just talk into that. I would be able to describe my idea and then I could come to this and get awesome.

I am sure I am just driving you nuts by using the word awesome so many times but their really aren't too many words that are more awesome than well, awesome.

So random idea that just happened to pop into my head. I am sitting here watching this video of on youtube of DJ Tiesto. If you click that link and watch the video, you will be able to see what I am about to talk about. How crazy would it be to stand infront of thousands of people that all dig what you are into? Like, thousands of people just coming to see you do something. I want to figure out a way to experience that some how. I doubt I ever will because well, I don't really do anything that amazing that would attract that many people in the first place. I just think it would be cool to have that many people react to my actions at one time.
Also, I wonder how much money he makes from doing something like that! Even if tickets were like $5 per person and he only gets a percentage of that, that is still A LOT of money. I wouldn't mind living that guys life at all. It would be so awesome... ;)

I don't know why, but as of late I have been obsessed with Youtube for listening to music. It is like google, if you can think of it, it is already there! Millions on top of millions of people use and contribute to Youtube everyday, it is insane to imagine the amount of data that is stored into that. OOH! OOOH! That just reminded me of a thought I have had a few times while driving.

If for some unbelieveable reason Youtube was hacked or something, and every single file ever uploaded to it was removed. What do you think would happen? I am sure this is impossible and they probably have the data super protected and backed up multiple times. I am just saying, what if?
It would just be gone and non existant. How fast do you think it would recover? What would happen to all those Youtube famous people? Would new people take over with that fresh advantage? I have always wondered what would happen at least. It just seems like youtube has become like myspace and facebook, addictive and apart of our lives.

There you have it. In all its awesomness. My post for the day.

Am I Falling Behind?

Today I had a realization while having some coffee with my friend Kate. Time is flying.
It was funny how when the topic of people we graduated with had been having kids, getting engaged, and even married was brought up. We both had similar thoughts and views that maybe we were falling behind. Now, obviously being 20 years old this isn't true, it is just some people are moving faster/ready sooner/able to do these things. To be entirely honest, I don't think I would mind being engaged.. The married and kids part not so much obviously. However, when some of your closest friends are getting engaged, or even already married you start to feel like maybe you should be trying a little harder. Well, at least I have felt like that for a while now. I don't think that I really need to be trying harder but sometimes I feel like I should be.
It is so crazy how as each year of life passes, time begins to move faster and faster. The things you experience become almost like a timeline of lifes pattern. It's like, your growing up, people start "dating", then it gets into the partying, then the drinking, then some people fall victim to drugs, then graduation from high school and life really kicks in. People go off to college, some people end up having kids, some people get engaged and married.. then as time keeps going more and more people start repeating the last few. Then before you know it your 50-60 and your kids are having kids, then people you know start dying of old age. Now, obviously this timeline is long and doesn't happen over night. I am just saying that it is a timeline that seems to be moving faster and faster as time goes on. I seriously feel like I blink and it has been 2 months.

Obviously I am not falling behind.. Just my interesting thought for the day!

I am BACK

Wow, one month and one day later I finally make the motivation to update this blog of joy. Time has flown, litterally. I cannot believe how rediculous my life has become. I love it, but honestly... I can't believe half the stuff I have done in the last month.

First of all since my previous posts I blabbed forever about going to Las Vegas.
I will just sum it up in three words. It was kickass. I feel like the whole trip really opened me up to new experiences and I feel like in my life I will do a lot of traveling when I get the chance. I really enjoyed my time down there, meeting so many people I have worked with through BMXunion and just catching up with people I haven't seen in a long time. Oh, by the way I am going again next year.
The flying part was pretty crazy, I wasn't really all that nervous which surprised me. It was actually pretty cool and I wish I had a window seat now. I am really happy I had the oppertunity to take that trip.

Let's see, I have been living the single life again for a little over a month now. Yep, I hate it. I really wish I had more time to go out to parties and get some dating done. However, I am just so busy with school and work I just can't seem to motivate myself to try all that hard. I guess that is all I really care to say about that topic right now.

Speaking of school, apparently I haven't been doing all that bad this year. I am pretty shocked since I felt so overwhelmed with everything when the semester had started. I guess it was just planning that trip, leaving my old jobs, the break up, and all that stuff mixed in that just didn't help. However, I have had the chance to really focus and I think that it is real good. I feel like if I wasn't in school I would have more oppertunities to travel but I really want to at least get my degree even if I don't end up using it.

Oh, have I mentioned I have fully committed to wanting to be a writer? I am sure it might just be a phase, but I have honestly been into writing for some time. I guess with all these oppertunities lately I feel like maybe I can make it a reality? Who knows, just have to wait it out and see where life takes me I guess.

I have also been working a bunch at my new job. I have been working at this trucking company in the shop just doin odd jobs like cleaning trucks and trailers. However, it also involves a lot of other random jobs. For instance, this previous week we spent ripping a roof/deck off so we could rebuild the roof and deck. It's weird because I am actually really into going to work just because I have no idea what I might be doing.

Life is a weird thing, I always felt like everyday was almost pre planned and just going to happen without really much of an unexpected twist. Throwing in all these changes really made me realize that I have no idea where I will be tomorrow. Where I will be in 5 weeks. Where I will be in 5 years. I can only aim for what I want and make it happen in the best way I can. I am going to make things happen, I just need to do it. I will too.
Check back for more from me.. I promise it won't be a month.