College Study Skills

This actually has nothing about College Study Skills. Infact, it is Anti College Study Skills. I am actually writing on here instead of studying for the tests I have to take in the coming two days before I leave for Vegas.

However, my point of this post! I am not sure if what has happened lately is some sick joke or what. I don't get it, but I like it.
Ever since I had put in my two weeks notice at my jobs my life had felt less and less stressful until last saturday when they had come to a final end. After that, it got even better faster.
Maybe I should explain this one... I obviously have been stressing this trip to Las Vegas if you haven't noticed haha. The thing is though, I don't have to work as much anymore! It is so crazy. I can focus on my goals and get to them...
Just that's the thing, ever since then all these funny things have been happening.

For example, today while leaving school as I was making my way through the parking lot I had decided to pause and just watch as a car was backing out. Why would I stop to watch a car back out you say? Well, that is because on the exact opposite side of this row of parking spaces a car was backing out also. Oh yes, you know where this is going..

BOOM! haha. That is the funny thing about fender benders, they are always funny if you or your property is not involved. Why is it always funny to watch other people get hurt? (not seriously, just small things like tripping on the stairs)

The worse part about this is it wasn't exactly both peoples faults. I watched, with no ability to do anything about the situation due to my position, as one car realized what was going on and slammed on the brakes while the other car proceeded to go kaboom. How funny is that? Just like Dane Cook when he talks about the runner who gets hit by the car and all he can do is make a weird noise. LOVE IT.

Another funny thing that has happened is my new work. I know it was "beginners luck" or something but my first week at my new job was literally the most fun I had at work in dare I say it... years.
I got to drive a truck around a gravel parking lot with a drag for an hour or so leveling out the rough patches. Today I got to help as the rest of them demolished an old cement shed out in the feild (which I guess we weren't suppossed to take down anyways? whoops! wasn't my idea) I mean I did do work like sweep, vacuume, and wipe down trailers and insides of trucks, but that is easy work. I love how the time actually moves since I am usually doing something that is actual work, and not just waiting for something to get screwed up to fix it ya know?

Oh well, I like it and my life is a whole lot less stressful.. In fact it is just pretty entertaining to see where things will go as time goes on.

Hope you enjoyed this installment of randomness.

The Influences of Life

This is going to be fairly obvious. Some recent influences on my life as of recently.

First of all maybe I should raise a question... Is it just me or as you get older does time go by faster and faster? I feel like I blink and it is a whole new week or even month now days. I don't get it!? I mean it is the fourth week of school already.. Yeah!? I sware I was just writing about the fact that school was starting and I wasn't sure how ready I would be. I mean don't get me wrong, I LOVE how fast school is going... I wan't it to be done so I can get off into the real world and make something big out of myself. Shit, I seriously can't wait.. These are suppossed to be the years you enjoy the most and I seriously do enjoy it, just I don't get all hammered on thirsty thursday or something. I do my own thing, you know this!

Let me get back to the point of this little blog of love. I realized with this time going on I have had some pretty impressive influences on my life, no matter what... Anything and everything that makes any sort of contact with you will impact your life.
For example, a very close friend of mine's (sp?) sister is going through a really really tough time with cancer. However, not once in the last 3 months or so have I ever once saw her upset, or angry. I should also mention for a while, including the day she found out, I was there almost everyday, and never once upset. I don't get it! When you are told about a condition like that isn't there a law that says you are allowed to be pissed and upset? I don't know.. All I know is that, that person has really greatly impacted my life lately. It has shown me that no matter how bad the situation might be, you need to be positive and happy. Don't get pissed about things that are out of your own personal control, just deal with it and make the best out of it. I try and put my stresses of life into perspective and then take a walk in her shoes. I don't know how I could ever be pissed off again, I really have no reason to be. I just pray everyday that it gets better and everything works out. I feel like her attitude should be a cure enough to get past this. Lets hope somebody out there gets that and does a little miracle work.

Speaking of that, this girl who has played a pretty big role in my life lately.. Even though I don't think she can handle believing that, I think so at least. She really has opened my eyes up to my abilities and pushed me to make sure I don't take them for granted. I mean I was pretty blind [note: I just spelled bling instead of blind] to some of my accomplishments. I am pretty modest, I was told that and it has stuck in my mind ever since. She really has thrown me out of my comfort zone and made me experience new things. I appreciate that and I am sure she doesn't even know it. Now we are a few hours apart due to school and it sucks because I know if there wasn't the distance things would be different. However, this is a good example of how life challenges people. Maybe someday it will work, maybe she will find somebody new. That I will never know, but I know I won't forget her. I just know that I am chasing my dreams and not giving up as easily as I used to. There are a lot of other things I don't think she even realized that I experienced because of her either. Simple things like going to the Zoo not involving school, or what it is like to go for a long walk in the woods with somebody else. Yeah, you get the point... I will save you the pain of me continuing. Plus, I doubt she will even see this haha.

The next big influence on me lately is my two best friends who have both been enlisted in the millitary. One for over a year, another for about two months now. I never realized how big of an influence these guys have been on me until lately. They really did get me to be pretty social and just have a good time. I have a lot of respect for the things they do. However, if I may say I do get pissed every time the one who has been in it for a while posts pictures on his Facebook of recent trips. I am beginning to wonder if the air force is just a new thing to be able to travel the world and make people think they are working haha. I mean honestly, since when is flying the President's car to Hawaii work? Okay, I am just bitter but whatever he got his ass worked and beat to get the priveledge so I will just take it. However, not a day goes by that makes me think about when they both will be back and we can go out or do something together again. With time flying it will be before I know it. At least that's what I would imagine.

This next one is very broad. BMX. Without the people involved with that would I be where I am today. I get together with my friends to ride bike and anything wrong with my day is replaced with laughs and good times. I am very greatful for the people who keep me motivated and know how to have fun on two wheels. I was super nervous about going to Las Vegas but seriously, I have been promised that I will have an amazing time more than 20 times so I can't imagine all these people will let me down. =) I am sure there will be a pretty awesome blog post about that trip. I am sure I will even do a little while I am bored the firs two days waiting for the rest of the people to show up on Tuesday. I love the feeling I get after learning a new trick, kicking my own ass, anything that has to do with it.. I love it.

Family, well this will be short. For all the shit that has happened it is still nice to have somebody there to tell me to follow through and just go out and experience the world. Experience the world I will do. At least that is the goal right?

There are so many more things that influence my life, I mean I come in contact with so many things everyday. I just think that it would kill you to have to continue to read this and get jealous of my life. Oh settle down, you know you aren't jealous. If you are let me know in the comments ;)

Some Sunny Day

I bet you can't guess where I came up with that title. Well, "some sunny day" which is from Simple Man, which I am listening to the accustic remake of it from Shinedown. Good stuff, love both versions!
So, today is my last day of work at my two jobs I am leaving. I finished off one this morning and am just chilling between when I leave to work at 5 at my other job. It is pretty crazy the feeling I got leaving my job today. I felt this pressure just leave me, but I was still bummed because so many people seem pretty upset about me leaving. I don't know what that is all about.
So I will be going to this other job here in a bit, I can't imagine much will happen since it is the mall on a saturday night, with a part time assistant manager who wants to quit too. I can't imagine what might go down tonight for work. Probably nothing which is cool I supposse.

As I am talking to one of my best friends I was just realizing I have tomorrow off. Which hasn't happened in a long time. I litterally have had two saturdays off in a year, and not too many more Sundays off. Ahh that's so crazy to think about haha.

Now, heres the deal. I can focus on school! then my internet work, and my new easy ass job that is like 2-3 hours a day if they need me.

In a week I am going to be freaking out. I am going to Las Vegas, I am sure I said this in other posts. I am going for Interbike which is a huge trade show for the whole bicycle industry. Then I have gotten on the list to go to Nora Cup which is a big BMX industry award show thing that is just a big party. I am so excited to go to this. I have the flights all lined up, stuff to do, and other cool shit. I even get to meet and ride bike with my idol at some point. HELL YEAH.

That is really all I can think of right now.

Music is for champs

You know these titles are getting catchy. I am not sure why I have been writing on here so much lately but it is good.
I am not quite sure where this is going but I do know one thing. It might have a point.
I am one of those dudes who just likes music too much. I don't claim to be some sort of rockstar or know how to play instruments. I don't get all decked out to fit in with a crew of emos or head bangers. I just am me ya know? If that is even possible these days.
I always have my headphones on when I got a free moment. I walk from class to class with my music on, when I ride bike, when I lay in my bed writing this shit blog I am listening to music.
Why am I talking about music? Well, because today I snapped. I raged out and got everything I was thinking out to somebody. I know that is the last time I will hear from them too. I guess it was just the fact that you can only tolerate somebodies shit for so long before you really just need to vent it. Shit, I didn't want it to be this way, it just happened to be what happend.
I think it is amazing because for the first time in a long time I just went and rode bike, listened to music, and found myself feeling better again.
I haven't felt so ... fresh.. in this long. I let shit build up until I get to the point where somebody says the wrong thing the wrong way I blow all my shit off on them. Sure, it is a dick thing to do especially to your ex who is going through hell as is. Hear me out though! I was taking so much stuff, and blaming myself for things that shouldn't have been my fault. I have so much stuff going on with my life and that was just something that was ready to blow out and it happened.

I won't take it back or appologize for it either. I really don't feel like there is a reason to and I don't think that when you are dragged through shit you have to say sorry for it when you throw a little mud back right?

I am sitting here... I mean laying here in my bed listening to Flobots. For the first time in a long time I just feel relaxed, not paniced or flustered, just.. chill. I love it. I missed it.

Knowing where you want to be and what you want to be someday makes things a little bi clearer.

Till the next time!

Laughing like your on fire

Where the hell do I come up with these titles? "Laughing like your on fire"? Really? Don't ask, I don't know.
I have been thinking about funny events that have happened to me in my life. It is weird when you get a idea of thinks you would like to remember, what will come up first.
For example, I was trying to think of a funny story, and the first thing that came to mind was from two winters ago.
Two of my best friends Josh, and Bryan were on this adventure. Living in Minnesota you learn to deal with snow. You learn how to drive in the worst of conditions and it usually makes for good times. This particular night was insane, something like 2 feet of snow fell. We first of all went to a movie... It was the Reno 911 movie haha. After we got out we had heard of some good parties on the far other side of town at our colleges "dorms". Rochester is a pretty big city, something like 50 odd miles around? Whatever, so we are on this trek accross the city. It first takes us about 20 minutes to get to Bryans house, about 3/4 the way to our final destintion.
This is when the storm really gets bad and of course Josh and Bryan decided they wanted to drink. So I was left up to be bus driver or should I say truck driver.

We venture back out into the snow and hop in the truck. I am driving, Bryan in the middle, and Josh at the window spot. We begin driving and it is litterally hell, we almost didn't make it up Bryan and Josh's street. We got there, then got out onto this main highway that is down hill the whole way to our final stop.
We get going and of course I cannot see the road. The road is covered in snow and it is coming down so heavy that there is no visability. Josh decides it would be proper to stick his head out the window to navigate.
I still remember this so clearly.. Josh peeks his head back in and drunkenly informs me "Dude, I think we are driving down the highway in the ditch?" Oh, how epic. I instantly realize where I am on this two lane road (4 lanes total) and get back on our road.
It took us 35 minutes to travel 2.5 miles that night. Full-speed ahead with nothing but laughs. I will never forget that night.

The drive back was even better..

Sure this story had nothing to do with fire, but it did have a lot to do with laughing.

When it rains it pours

So, recently my life has been changing a lot.. If you read my posts below you would know this.
However, what I am blown away about is how things are slowly falling together in ways I never expected. Atleast in a sense relating to work.
I have worked only 3 real places before. A bike shop, a Pac Sun, and a Athletic Club (fancy name for a gym). I recently (2 weeks ago) put my two weeks notice in at Pac Sun and the club. I haven't worked at the bike shop for over a year now.

A year ago I started my website, no not this one... This one. It has grown pretty steadily over the last year and it is a great accomplishment for me. In the process I had been offered a job as a contributor/content updater for another website and I have been super stoked on that. I didn't think it would get much better than that. Except, it has. Today I recieved an email from a guy who has some power at a media network. I can't say what one yet, just because I don't want things to fall through and then look stupid haha.

I am pretty excited about this just because in the last year I really have grown a greater appreciation for writing. I by no means think I am this amazing writer. I just really like to do it while knowing a lot of people are reading it. Maybe it is just the fact that I like to entertain or get reactions of peoples thoughts towards my work.

I would kill to make a living as a writer. I mean sure, I obviously won't be rich doing it, I just enjoy doing it and it makes sense when I think about it as a "career" type thing. I guess that is one thing I never really knew I would get a shot at. I grew up reading other peoples work and wondered what it would be like to write, and now I am getting a few chances. I really hope I keep getting these chances.

That is all that is on my mind right now. I don't know if this was really worth your time to read to be honest. I guess if you made it this far you really can't take back the time you lost. Sorry haha.

How to get people arrested

This is strictly just a funny story, it wasn't intentional.. It just happend and I am not making this up... How could I make this up!

So the other Friday night my buddy and I had gone to St. Paul to meet with a few of our friends to ride some BMX on the University of Minnesota campus. You know, doing our tricks and hitting up spots. Watching underage kids run abroad hammered and out of control. Wow, I am only 20 I feel like I am a 30 year old talking here.
Okay, back to my story.

So we are cruising along, flying past Frat Row where there had to be about 2,000 people partying. We notice when we come down a street a little "arguement" between a guy and his girlfriend I would imagine. There was another girl with them.
We hit up a spot for a few minutes then notice this guy and two girls pushing their car with the emergency flashers on down the road.
Being the nice people our group of about eight was, we offer to help. We are pushing the car along and somebody notices a cop turning the other way just a little ways down the street.
Without thinking we start waving down this cop thinking he could use his brush guard to push or do something to help this guy and girls out... Or not.
The guy starts getting a weird awkward look when we start waving the cop over, and he ditches the car and runs. The car goes rolling on by itself and the fun begins.
The cop turns on his lights, jumps out of his car and chases this guy down! He catches up to him and tackles him on the ground.. "What the police brutality!?"... Nope.

Turns out this dude was in a little trouble already, on the warrants list. Instantly this guy is in cuffs, along with the two girls.

Then back up shows up, but here is the kicker. 4 different cop cars came to the scene, but everyone of them didn't have their lights on and were not speeding at all until they got to the street. They then turned on their lights, FLOORED it down the street for 3 seconds, slammed on their brakes, and got in on the party. It was so funny. The cops apparently wanted to make it look like they were "urgent" or something.

Eventually the cops pull out the dog, and let him go to town on this car.. Sure as shit, there was a reason they did this. The car had drugs in it.
The guy is taken into a car, the girls are too. The cops don't say a word to us even though if it wasn't for us they would have turned the other way and probably not even made the arrest.

You can't make that up and I wish "Cops" was on location filming! haha

Fear or Not

It is fun to find your biggest fears in your life... It isn't funny when people know them and use it as a way to attack you for entertainment.
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Okay, it is funny I can't deny that.
My biggest fears have always been really weird for the weirdest reasons too. Well, maybe not weird. Why do I second guess myself so much? Okay.

So, one of my bigest fears is snakes.. SNAKES ON A PLANE! wait.. shit I wll explain that later.
I don't know what it is about snakes but they scare the crap out of me. Maybe it is the fact that a lot of them are capable of killing with poison, or that they can wrap themselves around you to kill you, or that they are just gross and weird that scares me. I don't really know, I just know when I see them I get shivers down my spine thinking about what would happen if there wasn't glass or a T.V between myself and that particular creature.

I don't know if I am actually scared or that I just never have really had a reason to attempt this next one. Flying.
I have never flown before, for a few reasons, most that are just too personal for me to write it down here. I just have that "what if" fear where my mind thinks about possible outcomes for anything I do. However, September 21st I will fly for the first time and I can check it off my lists of things I might be afraid of but never done, I hope I am not scared haha. Oh, and the snakes on a plane thing. Think about that mix, planes and snakes.. I would be a disaster haha.

A stupid fear of mine that I guess is a personal issue/common issue is that fear of being alone. I have never really been one to open up to people in the form of relationships ever just because my lack of trust. My lack of confidence. My lack of a lot of things has always prevented that one and it had always made me question how I am going to end up NOT alone. I guess that one is all I can do is hope for the best right?

Roller coasters... Oh man people don't get me for this one. "How can you ride BMX, jump in the air, do all those tricks, but be afraid of a roller coaster!?".. Well, I figured that one out. I have this thing where if I am not in full control over it then I will always have this uncontrolable urge to do anything in my power to control it. If that even makes sense? For example, when I am driving with somebody and they are one to be a little slow on the brakes and almost a little "wreckless" I tend to push on the floor like I am trying to push on the brakes. I don't know why I do this, I just do. I just like to be in control I guess. My other reason is, how many times have you heard stories of stuff like that failing. Once again, my mind just playing out situations that don't need thinking about haha.

Failure. Everyone fears failure, it is inevitable that at some point in your life you have failed. I know I have failed plenty of times but I am looking more down the road. I know I will do something cool just because I know when I am at a dead end and get out of it if it doesn't work. I just hope I can find a real job that pays real good and doesn't allow me to fail at life.. I don't want to be broke! I am going to college for a reason.. I hope. Haha.


I really can't think of too many other things I am afraid of. I am sure there is a whole bunch more but it just doesn't click for me right now. Maybe someday I will be able to add to this list. Who knows, maybe someday I will be able to remove some from the list haha.

If I could fly

You never really realize exactly how complex life is until you step back and see it from a different perspective. You get so set in your daily life and ways that when a major alteration is made you find yourself confused and unsure what you want.

In a short amount of time, litterally about two weeks. I have altered my life in so many ways I doubt I will even realize it till I put it in words..

Lets start out simple.. After a year and a half I have decided to leave both jobs.. Why? Well, because oppertunity arose and instead of just saying nah.. I took it. I stepped out on a ledge and jumped. It sucks, because the reactions I got from my bosses were what made it hard to leave. I mean I really do work hard and try my best to make sure I am getting what I am suppossed to be done, while having a good time. It was hard when they both were disappointed, yet understanding enough to let me go. I mean I even got offered a going away party.. That shouldn't happen in retail.

With that, I have had some oppertunities to work online and really get some work done with my real true love of writing. Sure, I don't always write the best but that doesn't mean I can't do it right? I also have been offered a job doing real work around a trucking companies shop where my brother is a mechanic. It will be good to just do something new and crazy.. and probably make more money. I say probably because it is up to me to make things happen, not the other way around like usual.

The next big twist to life is back to school. My second year of college! It is weird to think that it has already got that far in a blink of an eye. I think I will like my classes and should be able to focus on it better than last year. Sure, it was real hard getting back on schedual these last two weeks but it is good to have structure and keep things organzied. My god was it weird to think it has been 3 months since I had seen a lot of people who I see and talk to on a daily basis last year and this year. I like it, it has really helped me keep myself going.

I will keep this one short, basically I lost the girl who meant a lot to me and that through me off. I expected it to happen and I am doing my best to just move on. You can't expect all good things to last right? Add it to the lists of pressures in the last two weeks.

The stress levels I haven't been bad enough yet. You better believe I got more. I am going to Las Vegas September 21-28. It will be a lot of firsts for me. First time flying, first time farther south than Chicago, first time I will meet a lot of people who have helped me get into the BMX industry. The first time I will party like a champ in months. I am scared, but I at least have my mom to keep me motivated since she truely believes it will be a good experience for me. I believe that 100% and cannot wait till the 28th to say thanks for keeping me on track. It is and will be an amazing oppertunity.

I have been realizing a lot of things I want in my life someday too. I have started setting goals for myself and I am going to try hard to stick to it. Here are a few things I want to accomplish: Once college is done, buy a house. Yes, that is an expencive thing but it will be needed. I got time to save up and figure out what I truely want. I want to figure out exactly what I want to be when I "grow up"... I always keep coming back to a financial advisor, maybe that is just my thing. I don't know who knows what I will want to be in a month. Keep myself positive and ready for whatever comes my way. Thanks.